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My little vacation spot...

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 "Do you have a secret vacation spot in your home?"

I took days off from posting new drawings... And this is where I've been! I love being a mom, but there are many highs and lows.... And when I get mommy's blue, I frequent this spot for my mini meltdowns, because it's so silly. Silliness have power to break random cycle of dark spells... (Is this my silent cry for help? 😳)

My koala bear

At the market with my mini me.Β 

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Sometimes I feel her tiny hands massaging my body when I wear her in a carrier. It makes me happy that I'm still soft (pudgy) from the weight I've gained during birth. Because I like the way it feels when she squishes me between her little fingers...

Everything I have

 Pumping breast milk have been a very emotional experience for me. Being the soul source of nourishment for my baby is a lot to take on physically and mentally... This drawing is for moms who pump! Somedays are better than others. I've never felt such high and low until I pumped. But we always give all we've got, and this is everything I have!!!

Pumping breast milk have been a very emotional experience for me. Being the soul source of nourishment for my baby is a lot to take on physically and mentally... This drawing is for moms who pump! Somedays are better than others. I've never felt such high and low until I pumped. But we always give all we've got, and this is everything I have!!!

Date Night

 When we go out, all we could think about is our baby at home, and share our cutest pictures...😍😍

When we go out, all we could think about is our baby at home, and share our cutest pictures...😍😍

What new parents do when they finally go out alone for a date. πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ‘Ά Have a great weekend everyone!

Current status: zombie

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Oh dear... we had a rough one last night. Baby went to bed at 10pm, then she got up at midnight and wanted to play! I have tried everything I could think of. (rocking, nursing, bottle, change, lullaby, white noise, ignore her cry, putting her in carrier and pace around, and some talking and crying to myself at the end) When she was finally asleep it was 3:30am. Then she woke up at 8am and no nap or yawn since. I'm losing my mind...

 I'm so tired 😭😭😭 

I'm so tired 😭😭😭 

Weekend

Hello lovelies...What are you doing this weekend? I want to go somewhere new, and watch landscapes change before my eyes. Traveling with little one is always tricky. But where ever I go, I'm happy that my milk isn't something that I forget to bring with me β˜ΊοΈπŸ‘ΆπŸ’•

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My body in love

This is one of my first self-portraits as a mom. Before entering motherhood, I've imagined having a baby will be full of fluffy clouds and kisses. Boy, was I in for a big surprise! 

The new me was nursing every 3 hours for 45 min, pumped for 20 min, then spent next 10 min cleaning the pump, and carefully labeling and storing my milk away (even on days when I made only a spoonful). That gave me less than 2 hours to rest my tired, engorged and blistered boobs.

For the first 4 months I couldn't make enough milk to keep my little one happy. So I supplemented my baby with formula in-between nursing. For me, keeping her alive was the biggest challenge than anything I had ever put on my resume. Even through this madding exhaustion, I was so proud that my body was able to supply my baby with the care and nourishment she needed. This is my new body in love.